I Want to Be Someone’s Girlfriend

I want to be someone’s girlfriend. Is that too much to ask? I just want to feel loved and accepted for who I am. I just want to have someone who will hold me and kiss me and tell me that I’m beautiful.

But it seems like no one wants me. No one sees me as a girl. No one understands what I’m going through. No one knows how much it hurts to be trapped in a body that doesn’t match my soul.

I hate being a boy. I hate looking at the mirror and seeing the body I live inside. I hate hearing my voice. I hate living a lie and pretending to be someone I’m not.

But I can’t tell anyone the truth. I can’t risk being kicked out of the house or sent to conversion therapy. I can’t risk being alone and homeless.

But I don’t care about my mom. I don’t care about what she thinks or says. I don’t care about her “love” or approval. I don’t care about her at all.

I just want to be someone’s girlfriend. But I know that will never happen. No one will ever love me for who I am. No one will ever make me happy.

I will never be someone’s girlfriend. And no one will ever be mine.

But you know what? I don’t believe in love anymore. I think it’s a myth. It’s something that companies made up to sell products and make more money through holidays like Valentine’s Day.

Love doesn’t exist. It’s just a lie that we tell ourselves to make the pain of being alone go away.