I don’t know why I’m even writing this. No one will read it. No one cares about me. But I just need to put this somewhere.
I’m a teenage girl, and I’m transgender. I’ve known this for as long as I can remember. But I can’t tell anyone. I’m bad at making friends, and I have no way to make friends. My last “best friend” was toxic with anger issues. He would always put me down and make me feel bad about myself. I never came out to him.
The only friend I have is online, and she’s also transgender. But even though she’s great, I still feel alone. I want to have real friends in real life. I want to be able to go out and do things with people who accept me for who I am.
I sometimes really wish to be someone’s girlfriend. I want to be loved and accepted for who I am. But I doubt I’ll ever find someone who will love me for who I am.
I know that there are other transgender people out there. I know that there are people who would accept me. But I doubt I’ll ever find them.
I don’t think I’ll ever be happy. Or be accepted. Maybe I’ll never find a place where I belong either.
I don’t know what to do. I’m just so tired of feeling like this.
