I know no one probably reads this. Well except one person I don’t really talk to from discord I guess. Well hi there if your reading this. But I’ve tried so many things to try to kill myself. I keep failingeverytime. I’ve had deadly disease go to the late stages and survive without issue except being potentially weaker than I could be. Idk. I’ve survived many hanging attempts with the closest I got the rope untied and I fell to the ground and slowly woke up with my vision fading in. I’ve tried suffocating myself with 2 bags over my head as well as tying and tighting a rope around my neck. Different from the hanging. I’ve tried overdosing by poisoning myself with sodium nitrite but was discovered and put in the hospital and recovered with basically no damage to this body. I would really appreciate if someone could help me kill myself. I don’t live anywhere near a highway or train station so I can go into those at night to be ran over. I tried looking for places to buy sodium azide which is almost similar to sodium nitrite but has no treatment except supportive care. Any advice to finally kill myself and be at peace would be greatly appreciated ðŸ˜. Something I can do at home where we have multiple cameras in different rooms and my mom constantly checks on me is preferable. I don’t know how to get a gun either ðŸ˜. Why am I so stupid?! Other teens can get guns like candy but I can’t.
