Failed

So as you can tell from the title. I failed. I couldn’t get myself to drink the full dose of the mix. I ended up dumping it in the toilet and I struggled up the stairs from the basement. Despite drinking only a few sips it was still very toxic. I then put the cups in the sink and continued to my bedroom. The next thing I remember happening was me struggling onto an ambulance which never happened. Mt brain made it up. Apparently the ambulance people took me from my room. I had the poison mixture flowing through my body since about 2am and was put on the ambulance I’m guessing around 9am or later, so the poison was in me for quite a while but failed because I couldn’t take the full dose. The doctors gave me methylene blue which is used to treat sodium nitrite poisoning. For some reason the doctors detected benadryl, caffeine, and Tylenol in my body and told my mom but not me. I don’t understand the Tylenol and benadryl detection unless those are brand names of the drugs I took. I really wish I hadn’t lived and instead died. I can’t keep living like a boy 😭 I’m also still currently still in the hospital as they try to figure out what happened… The methylene blue they gave me turned my pee blue